As with many bloggers, I've tried writing a blog before and it always come to a grinding halt when life gets in the way. Not this time - this time in keeping with my new perception of life and all therein (heard that one before?) I've decided to make this a priority - I've always found structure in my life to be useful.
Dramatis personae in this blog are as follows - if planning to be a regular reader, you might want to get to know these people over time:
G = ex-wife, who I remain truly madly deeply in love with, although I'd never be so bold (or dumb) as to tell her this. PhD-holding physicist, all of my most recent non-familial happy thoughts and memories are of her and our all-too-brief marriage.
J = Dad (Jim), currently unwell, with whom I've only recently restarted a relationship, going to the Calcutta Cup game at Murrayfield this year: in his old age he's become a much more tempered and tolerant man, for which I am immensely grateful
M = dog (Millie), who I live with - a 10-year old golden retriever, a former (briefly) Battersea inhabitant who has been my confidante since 2008. Has reinforced my view that if reincarnation is real then I'll be back as a GR - sleeping, eating all day and going for occasional walks? Bliss.
F = shrink (Femi), @Oxleas NHS trust in London - despite having paid a small fortune to go private for many years, he seems to be the most insightful shrink I've ever met with a diagnosis of atypical Aspergers that I'd never previously considered
W = work, an amorphous mass of clients who I build (mathematical and statistical) predictive models for using tools such as SAS, SPSS, SQL and R
X = me. Hello. I build models for various banks (etc, see above) - insomnia cures, in the main
Turning to the question of diagnoses, here's a few of the labels I've had over the years:
- PTSD (a near constant - associated with service as a very young soldier on Op GRANBY (Google it))
- Depression (again, a constant)
- Personality disorders, including:
- Narcissitic
- Dependent
- Anti-social
- Atypical Aspergers (most recent) or other ASD
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